I Miss You

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Each day is a struggle
trying to maintain my sanity
in a world that doesn’t make sense
losing a loved one
but going on
my thoughts are cluttered
and my head is foggy
i must stay busy and keep going
but sometimes i focus too much
and slow down for a second
i lose control
a flashback to that awful day
when my world imploded
and i had to say goodbye
a son gone
a home broken
i do my best to take a step
towards the future
and not the cliff
but the abyss calls
and i want to give up
my tears will not stop
and all is a blur
but others call my name
and i realize that they remain
they need a dad
and a husband
they help dry my tears
redirect my path
the pain is so deep
so strong
their hugs ease the grief
help me subdue my thoughts
i am able to continue
at least for another day